Mostly-platonic buddies

While I spent a number of years out of the gay scene (after over a decade in it), in the past year or two, I've been going to a few gay bars again and the nude beach where I live including befriending a few gay men platonically. In this time I've also "played around" a little bit with a couple of guys from gay bars and a couple of closeted guys who struggle with their sexuality. I haven't dated any of them nor do I want to. I guess what I'm really looking for is deep close male friends, but definitely not a "boyfriend".

I believe that platonic shared nudity can be a healing experience and facilitate healthy male bonding and transparency. For me, regular sexual activity with one male would not be desirable or healthy, however, I don't necessarily think that "playing around" occasionally is the end of the world. I know I have to be careful here and that this is where some of the biggest division is:

"There seem to be two camps of thought among those who have thought about it at all: It's not ok, and God can cure you, OR it is ok and there's no sin in being a practicing homosexual." - Gays Christians & Truth

I still wrestle with the Bible verse about not awakening desire before it's time. But I definitely think there is such as thing as healthy nudity even though I know that massage often leads to arousal and arousal usually involves release either with someone or alone later. I've given this subject many years of thought. It's taken me a long time to come to this point in my life and I'm not claiming that I'm right or that I'm not playing with fire. I do, however, think that there are many things that are much worse than two mostly-platonic buddies who sometimes "play around" together.

I definitely need and enjoy the company of men and believe God designed all men to need men and that even the most heterosexual married man can not have all his needs met by his wife. For the man who is bisexual or struggles with homosexual tendencies, being nude with another guy is not guaranteed to be always platonic.